Set me free, leave me be.

Ask me anything   Submit   you're living in a dream,
you stay behind the scenes,
you never go outside,
cause you prefer to hide.
what you had you need,
all functional and neat,
in self-imposed exile,
a martyr-like denial.

These words are my diary, screaming out loud
and I know that you'll use them, however you want to.

one-corner asked: If the whole world was listening to you right now, what would you say?


Answer:

disneylandguru:

Dear World,

Stop worrying about whether you’re fat. You’re not fat. Or rather, you’re sometimes a little bit fat, but who gives a shit? There is nothing more boring and fruitless than someone lamenting the fact that her stomach is round. Feed yourself. Literally. The sort of people worthy of your love will love you more for this, sweet pea.

You are not a terrible person for wanting to break up with someone you love. You don’t need a reason to leave. Wanting to leave is enough. Leaving doesn’t mean you’re incapable of real love or that you’ll never love anyone else again. It doesn’t mean you’re morally bankrupt or psychologically demented or a nymphomaniac. It means you wish to change the terms of one particular relationship. That’s all. Be brave enough to break your own heart.

Don’t do drugs.

There are some things you can’t understand yet. Your life will be a great and continuous unfolding. It’s good you’ve worked hard to resolve  issues, but understand that what you resolve will need to be resolved again. And again. You will come to know things that can only be known with the wisdom of age and the grace of years. Most of those things will have to do with forgiveness.

 a lot of people will immediately X you out as a romantic partner for reason superficial reasons. That’s okay. You don’t need those people. By stepping aside, they’ve done you a favor. Because what you’ve got left after the fools have departed are the old souls and the true hearts. Those are the uber-cool sparkle rocket mind blowers we’re after. Those are the people worthy of your love.

You cannot convince people to love you. This is an absolute rule. No one will ever give you love because you want him or her to give it. Real love moves freely in both directions. Don’t waste your time on anything else.

Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Sometimes you’ll put up a good fight and lose. Sometimes you’ll hold on really hard and realize there is no choice but to let go. Acceptance is a small, quiet room.

Don’t lament so much about how your career is going to turn out. You don’t have a career. You have a life. Do the work. Keep the faith. Be true blue.

Sometime in your life you will doubt your self worth and a stranger will offer you a gift but you won’t take it because you believe you no longer have a right to such tiny beautiful things. You’re wrong. You do.

Your assumptions about the lives of others are in direct relation to your naïve pomposity. Many people you believe to be rich are not rich. Many people you think have it easy worked hard for what they got. Many people who seem to be gliding right along have suffered and are suffering. Many people who appear to you to be old and stupidly saddled down with kids and cars and houses were once every bit as hip and pompous as you.

Laugh all the time.

The useless days will add up to something. The shitty  jobs. The hours writing in your journal. The long meandering walks. The hours reading  and wondering about sex,life, and God and whether you should shave under your arms or not. These things are your becoming.

If someone you love does something or gives you something don’t say mean things or look at it with disgust.  That could be the last gift the give you. You will regret the small thing you didn’t say for the rest of your life.

Say thank you.

Just say Thank you all the time!

— 2 days ago with 70 notes
My Whirlwind of a Shitty Week.
  1. On Wednesday night, my sister overdosed. She is now seeking help in a treatment facility. 
  2. Because of this, I was unable to finish my math project that was due Thursday morning. This project is a huge part of my grade and will most definitely plummet my grade. It looks like I might not be graduating in the Spring of 2015 after all if I fail… 
  3. Thursday night I was slammed with a paypal case in which I was scammed out $282.54. After winning the initial case and the appeal, paypal decided to fuck me over the last second. Their response was simply “resell it”. My account hit the negative that Thursday night so I needed to do what I needed to do to get it back in the green.
  4. Friday- Oh, I love my Fridays. However, I did not like this one. See, I’ve gained some weight, guys. I’ve gained like twenty pounds and my boyfriend doesn’t find me attractive anymore. I am no longer fuck worthy. 
  5. Today- I’ll make it simple. My dad told me that my mom found a lump. End of subject. My aunt told me my great aunt has found a lump as well… My mom can see a doctor but my aunt… she can’t.  It’s been an emotional week for me. 

By the way, earlier today I bought a homeless man a meal and he then complained to me how I did not buy him a milk shake. A small act of kindness has gone overlooked because of such ungratefulness. I can’t even feel good about myself after thinking I did a good thing. 

— 5 days ago with 1 note
Tumblr knew I love mulan. Thank you, Tumblr, for contributing to my fucking awesome day. 

Tumblr knew I love mulan. Thank you, Tumblr, for contributing to my fucking awesome day. 

— 1 week ago
#mulan  #Disney  #disney princess 

My boyfriend used to look me straight in the eye and say “You’re so beautiful”  and leave me kisses all over. Ever since I gained weight he’s stopped saying that. I can’t tell if he’s shallow or if that’s really fucked up honesty right there. Have I really lost my beauty because I gained weight? Whatever the answer maybe, I don’t let him touch me anymore. He doesn’t complain either… 

— 1 week ago

almightyhail:

raptorix:

beggars-opera:

Is there a classic movie bloopers fandom because there needs to be one

OH MY GOD THESE THINGS REALLY EXIST???

I like how the guy in the fifth panel touches the blinds and then just goes FUCK IT I DIDN’T DO IT I’M OUT

(via genesissiseneg)

— 1 week ago with 166754 notes
peter-bui:

jaegizibe:

Hahaha 😂 I love this

omg LOL this reminds me of Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha
oh the good ol’ anime days

peter-bui:

jaegizibe:

Hahaha 😂 I love this

omg LOL this reminds me of Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha

oh the good ol’ anime days

(Source: 4GIFs.com, via babyj225)

— 2 weeks ago with 136898 notes

atheistj:

I’m not watching the episode but they actually killed off Neal? They really just did that? Wow, what a great message.  You have a shitty life and never get any happiness and then you die.  Thanks writers.

— 2 weeks ago with 53 notes

thebionicdoll:

image

looks familiar…

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don’t do this to her again!

— 3 weeks ago with 370 notes

aphaustria:

 

fairytalefaker:

Do you know the horrors that happened where you’re standing?

(via vivianredwood)

— 3 weeks ago with 186546 notes
Someone slit my tire at school today over a parking spot. Basically, I got the parking spot and they didn’t. I come back after class to find my car has a flat tire with a slit made from a box cutter blade. Campus security came and wrote down a report for vandalism. Today just sucked. 

Someone slit my tire at school today over a parking spot. Basically, I got the parking spot and they didn’t. I come back after class to find my car has a flat tire with a slit made from a box cutter blade. Campus security came and wrote down a report for vandalism. Today just sucked. 

— 4 weeks ago

zenis:

wet dream: being financially secure with a career i enjoy

(via lumberbitch)

— 1 month ago with 342865 notes
"Learn to say ‘no’ without explaining yourself."
Unknown  (via lullabysounds)

(Source: j-term, via vivianredwood)

— 1 month ago with 438231 notes